After getting SO VERY CLOSE to being cast on season 8, 9, and 10 of the hit reality TV show, The Biggest Loser, I realized a lot of things about myself. The most important being, how much I desperately want and need this. "This" being a healthy, whole, functional body.

My blog is intended to help me get accountable. Accountable to EVERYONE, family, friends, complete strangers and ultimately MYSELF. I have over 400lbs to loose in order to gain the FABULOUS life I was born to lead!!

I am SO EXCITED, nervous, embarrassed and determined. I will REJOICE with you in my accomplishments and confess to you any "falling off the wagon" I might do. I encourage EVERYONE to get out there and tell your friends about this blog. The more people that read and comment, the more accountable I create for myself! This is one of the HUGE aspects I love about the show. I would NOT have let America down! Now I just have to create my OWN America!! Post your own accomplishments, encouragement, questions, doubts etc. This blog is here for you too! Let's get this ball rolling! WE GOT THIS!!

Day one starts with "Dollar Store Lettuce..." click that red link, and then scroll past this intro. :)



Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Just Plain Tired

Have you ever been tired of being tired? Well, that's where I am now. It's not pretty. Things have been pretty stressful lately. I have tried to steer clear of eating in order to cope. I have done pretty well. A few slip ups here and there, but overall pretty successful.

I am just tired of running (or rolling) around in my hamster wheel. I feel like I try and try and try and try and get NO WHERE! Something has GOT to change, but at this point I am not sure what. I realize that I am just in a funk, it will pass, but this one has me worried. I am so tired. It's funny how this funky attitude of mine comes along right around the time casting starts to finish up on a show I am trying for. (can't give any details. Sorry.) lol

I am not a quitter, and I have decided in the last few days what I need to do is get back to basics. Concentrate on what's important now. That is my relationship with ME. _I_ am the ONLY one that can change my life. Not my husband, not my parents, not some show, not some celebrity trainer...I have to count on ME. That scares the CRAP out of me!!!! Maybe I don't trust myself enough??

I strayed A LOT from drinking water, so 3 days ago I got back on that wagon. Been doing at least a gallon a day since. I have quite a bit more energy. Go figure!

I am heading to the grocery store. I think I might try to live off avocados for the next month. They are on sale. lol KIDDING!! Wait...am I?? I am just going to concentrate on the water and no fast food again. I still am doing well in that no fast food department, although, I have had a hard time with it since the weekend. So I will be nipping that in the bud, right now.

Maybe tomorrow I can get myself out for a walk. I should probably talk to the DR. about getting on an anitdepressant too. I took a little quiz over at Web MD and evidently....I am super depressed. LOL! You wouldn't guess it looking at me. Or maybe you would! Who knows. I am going to wait a bit on that though. My good friend Rebecca Overson, from way back, has just got in contact with me, and would like to bring me on as a client of hers. She's a Clarity Coach; a "personal trainer for the soul" if you will. Goodness knows I didn't get to be over 550lbs by being clear minded. So I am SO SUPER excited to start working with her. I will keep you guys posted on our progress.

Hope you are doing well. Thanks SO much for reading. I promise to write more often.
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2 comments:

  1. mayrDecember 16, 2009 at 5:46 PM

    Hey Kristin...No more "maybe's". How about turning that maybe into I will..."Tomorrow, I will go for a walk." "I will finish every last drop of that gallon of water." When you will yourself, you hold yourself accountable...like a job...be accountable and don't say maybe cause that's like choosing...and this instance and from all that you want to accomplish in this regard, choosing is not an option for you.

    Look at your opening blog...Read the 2nd paragraph about wanting to lead a fabulous life again. What do you see back there that makes you want to return...what are the obstacles you face now...it's time to knock them down and go for it.

    So tomorrow...you WILL go for a walk.

    Let me know how you do...

    mayr

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  2. MegDecember 22, 2009 at 8:53 PM

    You will do this Kristin!! You are a strong woman!! You has so much FIGHT left in you.. Fight through the tired, GO TO WORK!! I KNOW you can do it!! We both can, and we WILL!
    Love ya girl!
    Meg

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