After getting SO VERY CLOSE to being cast on season 8, 9, and 10 of the hit reality
TV show, The Biggest Loser, I realized a lot of things about myself. The most important being, how much I desperately want and need this. "This" being a healthy, whole, functional body.

My blog is intended to help me get accountable. Accountable to EVERYONE, family, friends, complete strangers and ultimately MYSELF. I have over 400lbs to loose in order to gain the FABULOUS life I was born to lead!!

I am SO EXCITED, nervous, embarrassed and determined. I will REJOICE with you in my accomplishments and confess to you any "falling off the wagon" I might do. I encourage EVERYONE to get out there and tell your friends about this blog. The more people that read and comment, the more accountable I create for myself! This is one of the HUGE aspects I love about the show. I would NOT have let America down! Now I just have to create my OWN America!! Post your own accomplishments, encouragement, questions, doubts etc. This blog is here for you too! Let's get this ball rolling! WE GOT THIS!!

Day one starts with "Dollar Store Lettuce..." click that red link, and then scroll past this intro. :)

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Hello Everyone!!! I know you have been directed here by my contact card, but since I was diagnosed with Stage 4 Breast canSer in February of 2011, I have been on a mission to created and start a NEW BLOG that celebrates my weight loss AND highlights the VALUABLE lessons I have learned while dealing with this canSer.

I just posted a REALLY thought provoking blog on my new shift in how I am looking at my "fight". Please! Go read!!!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Some SUPER cool things are happening!!

Just wanted to stop by and give you a quick update!! I have gotten down to 514 lbs!! That is over 100lbs down from where I was last January!! My goal is to be under 499 by January 1st!!! GET 'er DONE!!!

I have a LOT on the fire right now, and am SOOOO excited!! I want to start a support group on FB for all of us Biggest Loser Hopefuls (i don't like the term rejects). I have been blessed with the friendship of MANY past BL hopefuls that have, like myself, lost INCREDIBLE amounts of weight ON THEIR OWN!! Now that BL has cast someone (a very dear friend of mine, in fact) that lost 120 lbs ON HER OWN before being cast, I think it's a great time to show people they don't need to wait around and stay fat for TBL!! We can ALL take on our life, without the fear of being turned down for the show. What is your goal anyway?? Is your goal the show? Or is it the weight loss? That is a question you have to ask yourself. If it TRULY is the weight loss, there isn't ANYTHING that is going to stop you, not even a show!!

ANYWAY! I am getting the infrastructure set up for the group. I plan to make it active this week and will start inviting people to join. It will be VERY private. ONLY Biggest Loser peeps will be involved. I will have a couple personal trainers available to us as well. I will create a positive, uplifting, ACCEPTING environment where everyone of us can come, share ideas as to what works and what hasn't. Recipes, exercise, inspiration etc!! I do NOT want to create an anti BL group! There will even be casting advice once that time comes around again. I just want people to understand that THEY CAN start now, and THE WILL succeed!!! :) If you want to be part of it, comment below, and I will make sure to send you a message on how to join. You will need to have a FB page, so let me know how to find you there as well.

I hope you all are WONDERFUL!!!! Be mindful of what you put in your mouth this holiday season, up your workouts, that will help with the extra Holiday calories! Keep these things in mind, and you should stave off any backslides. :)

Love you all, and look for another update very soon! Don't forget to follow me on Facebook. I post there a few times a day!


Sunday, August 29, 2010

A New NEW Begining!!

SOOO! Today I start my 30 day CHALLENGE. What is that you say? Well...MOST of you know I have been doing Isagenix for a while now. For those of you that don't know what that is, it's a Nutritional Cleansing and Replenishing system. I have had INCREDIBLE results, not just in weight loss, but with inches lost, stamina increase and MOBILITY gained!! (not to mention I am just a WHOLE heck of a lot happier!)

Since March when I started on Isagenix, I have been DILIGENT in putting this stuff in my body. NOW just to be "sticking with it" didn't include me doing the program 100%. I still had days, sometimes a few in a row, where I allowed fast food cravings and soda addiction to convince me I had no power over them, and then would binge. I ALWAYS went back on plan though, and began again putting this incredible nutrition back in my body then a couple of days later, I would binge again. Thus the cycle would continue. ANY FOOD ADDICT KNOWS THIS PATTERN!! I would chance it to say that any ADDICT, not just food, knows what I am talking about.

About 7 weeks ago I drew a line in the sand. I was DONE with soda. It was SOOO bad for me, I knew that. SOOOO acidic and loaded with chemicals! I made the decision and NEVER went back! Soda free for 52 days now!!

Now it's Fast Food's turn! It was proving to be more difficult to let go, that is until two weeks ago! I had a HUGE breakthrough, and realized that my struggle with Fast Food binging, was NOT because of the was EMOTIONAL. I wasn't addicted to the FOOD, I was addicted to the way it made FEEL while I was eating it! It was a way to zone out and "indulge". Two weeks ago, I FINALLY realized that I WAS STRONGER THAN FAST FOOD!!! So I STOPPED! :) No fast food for 13 days now. :)

I had been tossing around the idea of a super SUPREME detox using the Isagenix I had fallen so in love with. I knew that all the nutrients my body needs are available to me in this food. I had learned over the last 5 months, that I just FELT soooo much better when I was putting this in my body. So I have decided to go on Isagenix, ONLY ISAGENIX FOOD, for 30 days, JUST TO SEE how it would affect me! I KNOW it's going to be positive and I am expecting to see a HUGE difference in my mind and body at the end of this 30 days!! Today is DAY ONE!!

So, I USED to be a fast food and soda addict. I am NOW giving my body everything it needs and staying away from EVERYTHING that would hurt it. I know I will be INCREDIBLY rewarded in the end!! Please stay tuned!!

(follow me on facebook. I have pictures and video posted there of this journey!)

Monday, February 15, 2010

WOW! 2010 is gonna ROCK!!!

I have been meaning to write this post for a long, LONG time. But I just haven't found the time, had the energy, mustered the motivation blah blah blah.... SOOO many things have been happening on a daily basis, it's been hard to keep up. Part of my new regime is to be more "Organized" with my time, one might suggest I actually set aside time for blogging each day! GASP! Maybe I will!! On with the news!!

So the last time I wrote was mid December. I was in a pretty bad funk. I had been trying out for an ABC show that casting was sure I was a shoe-in for. The network went in a different direction and I didn't get cast. It happens. In an evil bout of irony, right after I got the word that the show was a no go, I also got laid off from my job. When it rains, it POURS!

I was pretty down for a few days, but what I finally realized was, only _I_ can control my destiny. I have been waiting WAY too long to take on MY OWN LIFE!!

Well, my whole life was about to change.

My FAVORITE quote has always been:

"Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, the providence moves too. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen incidents, meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamt would have come his way." (W.H Murray: The Scottish Himalaya Expedition)

The most meaningful and enlightening part of the passage, for me, is in bold. I ALWAYS believed the MOMENT I TRULY committed myself to getting healthy and earning back my life, every manner of support, assistance and events would follow suit to help me on my way. The hesitancy I experienced, starting diet after diet and always failing to some degree, let me know that total and utter commitment were lacking on my part. The task I was taking on was SO huge, I needed to be JUST as huge with my intention if I was going to overcome and succeed.

So back to the end of December 2009. At the bottom of my barrel. Depressed, lonely, unhealthy, unorganized, unkempt and just down right pitiful. It all finally clicked, It was up to me! I was the ONLY one who could change this!

I'd HAD ENOUGH!! I was DONE! Poke a friggin fork in me and lets call it Thanksgiving! DONE, DONE, DONE!!!

I knew the most important place to start was with my weight. I knew I could apply and interview for job after job. But I likely would never be hired. People take one look at me and think L-A-Z-Y. Let's say they actually listen to me and realize I am fabulous! Then the next thing they think is: "Hmmm, she is certainly going to raise our insurance rates, and I know I am going to have to fork over a lot of money for a chair" These are hard thoughts to overcome when I only have a little time to impress someone in an interview. I knew that I needed to lose weight simply for the boost in confidence, let alone the improvement in appearance.

With encouragement from my friend and Casting Director, I decided that while I was looking for work, I was also going to find a personal trainer. Someone that believed in me and would be willing to push me daily to be a healthier person. I didn't have any money, the only thing I could offer this individual is me. My story, and hopefully somehow, my example would attract people into their business. I could only rely on Karma to pay my debt.

Through a stroke of fate, my Dr. referred me to The Body Lab, in Spring, Texas. He had been training with them for a few months. I talked to the owner Jehramy that afternoon, and before I could even finish he was ALL OVER IT!! His energy and enthusiasm was AMAZING! I made an apt to start the following Monday, hung up the phone and bawled. At that VERY moment, I knew I would never be fat again. It was all so clear. My life as a depressed, angry but bubbly fat lady was finally coming to a close.

Through Jehramy's network, I was introduced to Real Meals 365, who offer individually packaged meals. They use 100% natural ingredients. All their meals are prepared in accordance with "Dr. Sears' Zone Diet". They have GENEROUSLY donated all my meals and snacks, as well as access to their dietitian for advice on eating out and off of their plan when the occasion arises. The food is FANTASTIC and so super clean! I can't believe how well I feel, just after a few short weeks.

I have been working with Jehramy and Keeon for about 3 weeks now. 5 of those days though, I spent in the hospital. I ended up with a rectal abscess! (YAY!! lol) and had to have emergency surgery. THANK THE LORD that my insurance still had 4 days until it lapsed!! But they guys haven't given up on me, nor have they accepted any of my lame ass excuses. LOL! Thank heaven! I have learned to ENJOY going to the gym! I am working with them one on one 3 days a week, and getting 30 mins to an hour of cardio in the other 3 days. I feel SO much stronger!!! (more about that in the next post)

Amazingly enough, since being released from the hospital on February 1st, I have lost a total of 27.2 lbs!!!!! I can't believe all the wonderful things that are happening!!! People have been showing up to help me left and right. I am SO incredibly blessed. I FINALLY know I am committed, simply because of the things coming my way.

If you are not following me on FaceBook, please add my Weight-Loss Page. I post there a couple times a day. I also post on Twitter. :)

Thank you ALL for the support and encouragement! We have a LONG road a head of us, but it's going to be a fun one!!!


Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Just Plain Tired

Have you ever been tired of being tired? Well, that's where I am now. It's not pretty. Things have been pretty stressful lately. I have tried to steer clear of eating in order to cope. I have done pretty well. A few slip ups here and there, but overall pretty successful.

I am just tired of running (or rolling) around in my hamster wheel. I feel like I try and try and try and try and get NO WHERE! Something has GOT to change, but at this point I am not sure what. I realize that I am just in a funk, it will pass, but this one has me worried. I am so tired. It's funny how this funky attitude of mine comes along right around the time casting starts to finish up on a show I am trying for. (can't give any details. Sorry.) lol

I am not a quitter, and I have decided in the last few days what I need to do is get back to basics. Concentrate on what's important now. That is my relationship with ME. _I_ am the ONLY one that can change my life. Not my husband, not my parents, not some show, not some celebrity trainer...I have to count on ME. That scares the CRAP out of me!!!! Maybe I don't trust myself enough??

I strayed A LOT from drinking water, so 3 days ago I got back on that wagon. Been doing at least a gallon a day since. I have quite a bit more energy. Go figure!

I am heading to the grocery store. I think I might try to live off avocados for the next month. They are on sale. lol KIDDING!! I?? I am just going to concentrate on the water and no fast food again. I still am doing well in that no fast food department, although, I have had a hard time with it since the weekend. So I will be nipping that in the bud, right now.

Maybe tomorrow I can get myself out for a walk. I should probably talk to the DR. about getting on an anitdepressant too. I took a little quiz over at Web MD and evidently....I am super depressed. LOL! You wouldn't guess it looking at me. Or maybe you would! Who knows. I am going to wait a bit on that though. My good friend Rebecca Overson, from way back, has just got in contact with me, and would like to bring me on as a client of hers. She's a Clarity Coach; a "personal trainer for the soul" if you will. Goodness knows I didn't get to be over 550lbs by being clear minded. So I am SO SUPER excited to start working with her. I will keep you guys posted on our progress.

Hope you are doing well. Thanks SO much for reading. I promise to write more often.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Who Needs Salt!? Not I!!

Okay, so maybe we all need a LITTLE sodium. But one thing I have figured out is that I don't need NEARLY as much as I was giving myself!!! For the last two weeks, I have been CRAZY about watching my sodium intake. Not going over the RDA. I can't TELL you how much of a difference this has made with my swelling and breathing. HELLOO!! Why didn't I think of this sooner!

No gimmicks, sweat, tears or anything terribly taxing. Just watching my salt.

Seems like the next step will be, ahem...going to the, um....GYM on Friday! AHHHHH! THAT is something that I am sure tears, sweat and maybe a gimmick or two will be involved it. That's right Jaime. You heard me. Galleria 24hr fitness here I come. Please have the treadmill cleared of any donut crumbs before I get there. No carbo-loading for me!!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Veeta, Vita, Vegimuns!

Hi all!!

Things are going really well! I have lost a lot of weight, I am estimating at least 30lbs. I am not sure though, as I do not have access to a scale that goes up to my weight. The scale at weight watchers did, but I had to cancel my membership there due to financial reasons. :( I have THOUGHT about calling up my Meeting Leader and seeing if they would just let me weigh myself once a month. No meetings or anything just weighing in. We will see! I have got to find a scale!!

The last month I concentrated on NOT eating fast food. I have had a terrible addiction of binging on fast food once a day, sometimes twice. So the decision to really focus on the root of my problem made sense to me. I wasn't going to worry about WHAT I ate, just as long as it wasn't fast food. I did end up having it about once a week though, still A HUGE VICTORY!!

Along with cutting out fast food, I had another goal: to cook at home, something I NEVER do. I don't enjoy it, it's painful to stand over a counter and cut veggies, stir pots and wait for water to boil! I started by cooking foods that I LOVE. They were not the best for me, but the thought of eating them when I was done, was enough to keep me moving through the painful preparation. Things like beef stroganoff, potato soup, lasagna, meat loaf etc. I did use things like lower fat milk and cheeses, lower sodium canned soups etc.

I did that for about 2 weeks, I felt good that I had stuck to my goal, but I was still tired and bloated. I decided to go to the Dr. I had blood work done last week and we discovered that I was literally malnourished. Seriously!! I ensured the doctor that I was eating! OBVIOUSLY not eating substantial foods and he suggested an over-the-counter multi vitamin. I went with plain old Centrum, but I got the liquid version and have been taking it with a small amount of orange juice in the morning. I am TERRIBLE about eating breakfast, but I understand how important this meal is, so I bought some Ensure with the intention of at least getting SOMETHING in my stomach in the morning. I have been on this regime for about 4 days now and feel INCREDIBLE! I have SOO much more energy!

This weekend I stocked up on some good veggies I like. Good spinach and red leaf lettuce, tomatoes, avocados, baked potatoes, sweet potatoes, apples, green peppers etc. I have been working those into my diet as well.

I have found that making these small changes in my habits and lifestyle have really affected me in a grand way! I am hoping that because the changes are so small, that I will be able to integrate and maintain them on a permanent basis! I know that these little changes now, will be magnified 10 fold down the road, all I have to do is keep running (or walking) down the road!! :)