So Vacation week wasn't the BEST week. But I did get A LOT of stuff done around the house that I have been putting off. I went back to work today with a new lease on life. :) It felt great!
Today was back to square one. I gained when I weighed in on Saturday. :( So I, again, re-committed myself and got back on the wagon this morning.
I got all 100ozs of water in. I had a good salad and a left over chicken enchilada for lunch. I did stop and get a burger as a mid afternoon snack. BUT JUST ONE! Not the usual 4. Ugh, that is so hard to admit, but I want you to know why just getting ONE is such an accomplishment.
Hubby's mom sent us a Chili's gift cert for our 2nd anniversary, so we had Chili's take out for dinner: BUT! I had another victory there. I wasn't terribly hungry, so I wasn't salivating over my usual, a huge portion (triple dipper, ALL chipotle wings) I had always wanted to TRY one of their guiltless grills, but never had the courage. Since I wasn't DYING for the fattening stuff, I decided to take advantage of the Grilled chicken with rice and veggies...
It wasn't half bad!!! I am so excited!! The chicken was dry. Not sure if that was normal or not. But I would try it again! (with something other than rice though, it was too salty) I did order an extra portion of veggies and really enjoyed the broccoli! I ordered the regular broccoli though, the one with seasoning and a little butter. I am not ready for butterless broccoli, it was a nice modest amount though.
Anywho! I feel great and am very happy with my choices. I had a couple really hard things to over come and I came out on top today. So I am hoping I can repeat it tomorrow. :)
Monday, June 22, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Oh My Word!
What a week!!
I have been trying to post for the last two days, but I have had a terrible migraine and my computer has not been cooperating. You'd think with a computer genius for a husband, I should never be lacking for SOME sort of connection to the outside world, but all I've gotten from him this last week is, "I am workin' on it"
SO! This week was a good week! It did have it's ups and downs though. I got payed on Monday and fell off the wagon in the way of fast food twice, and then Thai food on Friday. I was afraid of this. I was afraid that the reason I did SOOOO well in regards to my no-fast-food goal the past two weeks was because I literally didn't have any money to spend. Granted! I didn't go NUTS like I usually do. That was probably because I refused to give up. I started over EVERY SINGLE MEAL!
I got out 3 times this week to walk. I am going to have to re-think this walking thing this summer! It is only June and already It was just TOO DANG HOT most of the week! I bet the morning would be better. But that means getting up early! LOL I could go to the gym and swim, but I have no swim suit. SO! I am thinking am walking is going to be what it has to be. Jillian did give me a couple workout dvd's for beginners. I am not sure I am ready for those QUITE yet! Oh WHATEVER! IF they can work out for 4hours plus their first day on the ranch, I can get through 45 mins of Jill's dvd. SERIOUSLY!! The things we tell ourselves we can't do!! UGH!
This week I AM ON VACATION!!! YAY! I can't tell you the last time I got PAID to take some time off. I am so excited!! I plan on hitting every area of my house a couple hours a day and really getting it spic and span. I will also start this morning walking thing!
I did get off track with sodas this week. So I am recommitting myself to WATER WATER WATER! I am heading to the grocery store tomorrow for good food for us all week. I refuse to let us eat crap and fast food. Good veggies, good fruit, good turkey, good breads and cheeses homemade dinners...it will be interesting to see how different we feel at the end of the week!
So! Yep, in retrospect, not my best week by far since starting the blog. BUT like Jill says, don't slash the other three tires because you got a flat in one. :) Over the weekend I repaired my flat tire! I am heading to weight watchers tomorrow to weigh in, I should still see a loss, not sure how much...but a loss none-the-less and will hit my Vacation day #1 with gusto!! This will be the FIRST vacation that I have actually LOST weight on! :)
Stay tuned!!
I have been trying to post for the last two days, but I have had a terrible migraine and my computer has not been cooperating. You'd think with a computer genius for a husband, I should never be lacking for SOME sort of connection to the outside world, but all I've gotten from him this last week is, "I am workin' on it"
SO! This week was a good week! It did have it's ups and downs though. I got payed on Monday and fell off the wagon in the way of fast food twice, and then Thai food on Friday. I was afraid of this. I was afraid that the reason I did SOOOO well in regards to my no-fast-food goal the past two weeks was because I literally didn't have any money to spend. Granted! I didn't go NUTS like I usually do. That was probably because I refused to give up. I started over EVERY SINGLE MEAL!
I got out 3 times this week to walk. I am going to have to re-think this walking thing this summer! It is only June and already It was just TOO DANG HOT most of the week! I bet the morning would be better. But that means getting up early! LOL I could go to the gym and swim, but I have no swim suit. SO! I am thinking am walking is going to be what it has to be. Jillian did give me a couple workout dvd's for beginners. I am not sure I am ready for those QUITE yet! Oh WHATEVER! IF they can work out for 4hours plus their first day on the ranch, I can get through 45 mins of Jill's dvd. SERIOUSLY!! The things we tell ourselves we can't do!! UGH!
This week I AM ON VACATION!!! YAY! I can't tell you the last time I got PAID to take some time off. I am so excited!! I plan on hitting every area of my house a couple hours a day and really getting it spic and span. I will also start this morning walking thing!
I did get off track with sodas this week. So I am recommitting myself to WATER WATER WATER! I am heading to the grocery store tomorrow for good food for us all week. I refuse to let us eat crap and fast food. Good veggies, good fruit, good turkey, good breads and cheeses homemade dinners...it will be interesting to see how different we feel at the end of the week!
So! Yep, in retrospect, not my best week by far since starting the blog. BUT like Jill says, don't slash the other three tires because you got a flat in one. :) Over the weekend I repaired my flat tire! I am heading to weight watchers tomorrow to weigh in, I should still see a loss, not sure how much...but a loss none-the-less and will hit my Vacation day #1 with gusto!! This will be the FIRST vacation that I have actually LOST weight on! :)
Stay tuned!!
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Over 24 sticks of butter..GONE!!
24 sticks of butter off my thighs, stomach, back fat and big toes!
24 sticks of butter???
Yep! That is my FAVORITE visual for fat loss. There are four sticks of butter in a lb, and I lost...
6.8 lbs this week!! YAY!
I didn't even TRY to lose weight. I am so excited. I just concentrated on being stronger than the Fried-chickeny cravings, stayed off the soda and drank TONS of water!! I started PURPOSEFULLY walking on Thursday for 30 mins a day with my Brandy. All of these small but HUGE things led to a pretty darn good weight loss!!
HOLY COW!! I JUST did the math! A consistent 6 lbs a week would put me at a 312 lb weight loss at the end of the year! I would weigh 250 lbs by this time next year. I haven't weighed that since High school. Now I am bawling again. WHAT THE CRAP!! THAT IS SO EASY!! Seriously?? That is all I have to do?
I GOT THIS!!!
I did fall off my little wagon a couple times this week. I had a week moment at Long John Slivers and then again at Wendy's. But the food I bought was NO WHERE NEAR the amount I would have bought normally. And I did sneak in a couple sodas here and there. (3 cans total for the week)
I did re-negotiate my goals after feeling SOOO deprived. I don't want to fail, so I need to make sure I am doing things that are a stretch for me, but still setting me up to win. So the new goal is...stick to No fast food/no sodas M-F. Then allow them in MODERATION on the weekends. So let me tell you about today...Saturday.
Hubby and I decided to go get fast food for lunch. Usually, I run out and buy it all. I come home with, (oh my, my mom is going to die here)...A value meal, superszied, with a couple/few extra dollar burgers. I sometimes eat it all, I sometimes don't. I think it is the action of ordering that gives me the comfort/high I am looking for. (right now I am REAAAAALLY craving Thai food)
ANYWAY. I bring home my crap in a bag, and my husband's meal as well. Then I just eat, and eat and eat. I don't pay ANY attention to how I feel, or how it affects my mood.
Today though, after coming off a week of slim pickin's in the fast food department, Hubby and I go to Sonic, I order my combo meal, large sized with a cherry coke. (I skip the other bazillion burgers at this point because he is with me and my dirty secret would be outed!) Then we head across the parking lot to Burger King for his lunch.
This is when I start to freak out a little internally....
"OMG! I don't have my extra trillion burgers!! What the heck am I going to do?? What if this isn't enough! All I have is a burger and onion rings!!"
"Jordan, can you get me some onion rings from BK, these (from sonic) suck. They are cold" (they were perfectly fine.
"Uh, No. You have plenty of food...you are fine!"
I panicked.
In this moment I realized how SERIOUS my addiction to food is. NOT just the act of eating the food, but even the HORDING of the food. Do you have ANY idea of how much food is in our cupboard and freezer?? I mean, I am no Kroger, HEB or Safeway, but there is enough food in home if we need it. Regardless, I CONSTANTLY tell myself I don't have any food! (granted, there isn't much on hand that Jordan would touch with a 10 foot pole. But that's a WHOLE 'nother story)
Why do I do this??? I have ALWAYS, and still do a little, FREAKED out internally when someone takes food off my plate or wants to share something. I realize this is not a healthy emotional state to be in, but I have NO idea why or how I get there!
So back to lunch. I ate my Sonic. I had PLENTY, I did not need the 800 $1 burgers to fill around the empty holes left by the Value Meal. Let me tell you, I FINALLY was able to pay attention to how I felt afterward...and I have felt like CRAP all day. Isn't that interesting! It's not as though I have put GOOD food in my body all week, but it certainly was BETTER!
This week I am going to concentrate on more of the same, because OBVIOUSLY it is working!! YAY! I am going to add though a level of consciousness. I learned this next bit from Jillian's Book Wining by Losing:
When I find myself going for food, I am going to first ask:
"Am I hungry?" Yes? Then eat something that will sustain and nourish me. No?? Then ask:
"What emotion am I feeling RIGHT now" Then ask:
"How can I take care and honor that emotion without bringing food into the equation"
Here are some rewards I have set up for myself:
Every time I win the battle over a fast food craving, I will go home and transfer the money I WOULD have spent into my secondary checking account. At the end of the month, I am going to buy some kick ass scrapbooking supplies or some clothes, or a pedicure OR all of it, the way my cravings go, I will have $500 in savings by the end of the month!
Every 3 weeks, if I have lost at least 10lbs, my Mom and Dad are going to pay for me to get my nails done. :) Something I haven't been able to afford lately, and really need as my nails are so weak and thin they split and bleed right down the middle.
Here are the BIG ones!!
When I reach 350 lbs I am going back to Disney World!
When I reach 250 lbs I am going to New Braunfels for a week!! (my favorite place in Texas)
When I reach 180 lbs I am going on a two week cruise/vacation to the Bahamas!!
(I texted these goals to my parents. Do you think they got the hint that I was asking them to foot the bill too?? ;) )
I AM SO EXCITED!! Who KNEW that 24+ sticks of butter could make you feel SOOOO good!!!
I hope this post wasn't too long! Thank you so much for reading!!
Cheers!
24 sticks of butter???
Yep! That is my FAVORITE visual for fat loss. There are four sticks of butter in a lb, and I lost...
6.8 lbs this week!! YAY!
I didn't even TRY to lose weight. I am so excited. I just concentrated on being stronger than the Fried-chickeny cravings, stayed off the soda and drank TONS of water!! I started PURPOSEFULLY walking on Thursday for 30 mins a day with my Brandy. All of these small but HUGE things led to a pretty darn good weight loss!!
HOLY COW!! I JUST did the math! A consistent 6 lbs a week would put me at a 312 lb weight loss at the end of the year! I would weigh 250 lbs by this time next year. I haven't weighed that since High school. Now I am bawling again. WHAT THE CRAP!! THAT IS SO EASY!! Seriously?? That is all I have to do?
I GOT THIS!!!
I did fall off my little wagon a couple times this week. I had a week moment at Long John Slivers and then again at Wendy's. But the food I bought was NO WHERE NEAR the amount I would have bought normally. And I did sneak in a couple sodas here and there. (3 cans total for the week)
I did re-negotiate my goals after feeling SOOO deprived. I don't want to fail, so I need to make sure I am doing things that are a stretch for me, but still setting me up to win. So the new goal is...stick to No fast food/no sodas M-F. Then allow them in MODERATION on the weekends. So let me tell you about today...Saturday.
Hubby and I decided to go get fast food for lunch. Usually, I run out and buy it all. I come home with, (oh my, my mom is going to die here)...A value meal, superszied, with a couple/few extra dollar burgers. I sometimes eat it all, I sometimes don't. I think it is the action of ordering that gives me the comfort/high I am looking for. (right now I am REAAAAALLY craving Thai food)
ANYWAY. I bring home my crap in a bag, and my husband's meal as well. Then I just eat, and eat and eat. I don't pay ANY attention to how I feel, or how it affects my mood.
Today though, after coming off a week of slim pickin's in the fast food department, Hubby and I go to Sonic, I order my combo meal, large sized with a cherry coke. (I skip the other bazillion burgers at this point because he is with me and my dirty secret would be outed!) Then we head across the parking lot to Burger King for his lunch.
This is when I start to freak out a little internally....
"OMG! I don't have my extra trillion burgers!! What the heck am I going to do?? What if this isn't enough! All I have is a burger and onion rings!!"
"Jordan, can you get me some onion rings from BK, these (from sonic) suck. They are cold" (they were perfectly fine.
"Uh, No. You have plenty of food...you are fine!"
I panicked.
In this moment I realized how SERIOUS my addiction to food is. NOT just the act of eating the food, but even the HORDING of the food. Do you have ANY idea of how much food is in our cupboard and freezer?? I mean, I am no Kroger, HEB or Safeway, but there is enough food in home if we need it. Regardless, I CONSTANTLY tell myself I don't have any food! (granted, there isn't much on hand that Jordan would touch with a 10 foot pole. But that's a WHOLE 'nother story)
Why do I do this??? I have ALWAYS, and still do a little, FREAKED out internally when someone takes food off my plate or wants to share something. I realize this is not a healthy emotional state to be in, but I have NO idea why or how I get there!
So back to lunch. I ate my Sonic. I had PLENTY, I did not need the 800 $1 burgers to fill around the empty holes left by the Value Meal. Let me tell you, I FINALLY was able to pay attention to how I felt afterward...and I have felt like CRAP all day. Isn't that interesting! It's not as though I have put GOOD food in my body all week, but it certainly was BETTER!
This week I am going to concentrate on more of the same, because OBVIOUSLY it is working!! YAY! I am going to add though a level of consciousness. I learned this next bit from Jillian's Book Wining by Losing:
When I find myself going for food, I am going to first ask:
"Am I hungry?" Yes? Then eat something that will sustain and nourish me. No?? Then ask:
"What emotion am I feeling RIGHT now" Then ask:
"How can I take care and honor that emotion without bringing food into the equation"
Here are some rewards I have set up for myself:
Every time I win the battle over a fast food craving, I will go home and transfer the money I WOULD have spent into my secondary checking account. At the end of the month, I am going to buy some kick ass scrapbooking supplies or some clothes, or a pedicure OR all of it, the way my cravings go, I will have $500 in savings by the end of the month!
Every 3 weeks, if I have lost at least 10lbs, my Mom and Dad are going to pay for me to get my nails done. :) Something I haven't been able to afford lately, and really need as my nails are so weak and thin they split and bleed right down the middle.
Here are the BIG ones!!
When I reach 350 lbs I am going back to Disney World!
When I reach 250 lbs I am going to New Braunfels for a week!! (my favorite place in Texas)
When I reach 180 lbs I am going on a two week cruise/vacation to the Bahamas!!
(I texted these goals to my parents. Do you think they got the hint that I was asking them to foot the bill too?? ;) )
I AM SO EXCITED!! Who KNEW that 24+ sticks of butter could make you feel SOOOO good!!!
I hope this post wasn't too long! Thank you so much for reading!!
Cheers!
Friday, June 5, 2009
I'm a walkin' MACHINE!!
SOOO excited! I actually walked AGAIN today. None of this, "oooh, I walked for 30 mins at the store crap..." either! I can't believe the difference. Even though it's the same amount of TIME, walking 30 mins at the store vs 30 mins around the pond, it affects my body SOOOO differently!
I don't know if it is in my head, but this morning when I walked into work, I FELT much stronger. When I stepped up onto the curb, it wasn't a conscious effort like it usually is. My swelling which is usually VERY bad, has been minimal. Almost as good as when I take my Lasix regularly.
I AM SO EXCITED!! last night I slept better than I have in MONTHS and I FEEEEL TREMENDOUS!!
Yesterday, I had to stop literally about 12 - 15 times when I walked. 4 of those times I actually had to sit down on one of the benches for about 3 mins before continuing on, as well, I was walking terribly slow.
Today, after only ONE day, I was walking MUCH faster and only had to stop 4 times!!! SERIOUSLY! After only one walk!! What took me 45 mins to do yesterday, took me only 30 mins to do today!!! I only sat down twice! I STILL feel AMAZING!
I am SO glad I have this blog to write down how I feel. Both yesterday and today I was in such terrible resistance of going for the walk. I wish I could just remind myself how AWESOME I feel afterward!!
Thank you all for reading and supporting me! I am off to weight watchers tomorrow! Keep your fingers crossed!!
Tomorrow's blog post will have a lot of info about what I have learned from Jills book so far, like how many calories I should be consuming, plus a new set of goals. I get paid on Monday and will have some money to go to the store with, so instead of macaroni and cheese, I will be able to shop with a bit more money and get some healthier alternatives. :)
GO ME!!
I don't know if it is in my head, but this morning when I walked into work, I FELT much stronger. When I stepped up onto the curb, it wasn't a conscious effort like it usually is. My swelling which is usually VERY bad, has been minimal. Almost as good as when I take my Lasix regularly.
I AM SO EXCITED!! last night I slept better than I have in MONTHS and I FEEEEL TREMENDOUS!!
Yesterday, I had to stop literally about 12 - 15 times when I walked. 4 of those times I actually had to sit down on one of the benches for about 3 mins before continuing on, as well, I was walking terribly slow.
Today, after only ONE day, I was walking MUCH faster and only had to stop 4 times!!! SERIOUSLY! After only one walk!! What took me 45 mins to do yesterday, took me only 30 mins to do today!!! I only sat down twice! I STILL feel AMAZING!
I am SO glad I have this blog to write down how I feel. Both yesterday and today I was in such terrible resistance of going for the walk. I wish I could just remind myself how AWESOME I feel afterward!!
Thank you all for reading and supporting me! I am off to weight watchers tomorrow! Keep your fingers crossed!!
Tomorrow's blog post will have a lot of info about what I have learned from Jills book so far, like how many calories I should be consuming, plus a new set of goals. I get paid on Monday and will have some money to go to the store with, so instead of macaroni and cheese, I will be able to shop with a bit more money and get some healthier alternatives. :)
GO ME!!
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Jillian came to my door!!
Well...in the form of a book! :)
I am so excited! I got the book Jillian sent to me "Winning by Losing" I have already dog-eared and marked up the first few chapters. It is a surprisingly easy read and makes A LOT of sense!! She even signed it, of course I cried a bit. It was just so freeing! I am officially a dork now. :)
So! Today was a good day! I probably didn't eat ENOUGH. I had chicken salad and Ritz like 3 times. I know I needed fruit, but I have -$2 in my bank account and had to eat what I had on hand. I did go for a WONDERFUL 40 minute walk around our pond here in our subdivision. I resisted and resisted....I haven't wanted to do something SO much for a long, long time. I knew I HAD to, thank goodness I had the support of my friend of 38 years....Brandy. If it hadn't been for her and her skinny butt, I would have sat on the couch in a coma until Jordan came home. But because of her, AND my ability to reach SUPER deep down and start this exercise crap, I am sitting here with TONS of energy and adrenaline flowing through my viens. Boy does it feel good!
We are going again tomorrow. :)
Again, TONS of water today. I did break down and had a sunkist. But only half. SO I am not beating myself up. I negotiated with my mother today, that if I lose 10 lbs every three weeks, she will pay for me to get my nails done! YAY!! THAT'S some short term incentive right there!! So I have to loose 10lbs this weekend at weight wathchers, Momma needs to get her nails done next week!! :)
I am heading out to read more of Jill's book! Tomorrow will be about what I have learned from her book and any new goals/incentives etc I have set for myself!!
Cheers!!
I am so excited! I got the book Jillian sent to me "Winning by Losing" I have already dog-eared and marked up the first few chapters. It is a surprisingly easy read and makes A LOT of sense!! She even signed it, of course I cried a bit. It was just so freeing! I am officially a dork now. :)
So! Today was a good day! I probably didn't eat ENOUGH. I had chicken salad and Ritz like 3 times. I know I needed fruit, but I have -$2 in my bank account and had to eat what I had on hand. I did go for a WONDERFUL 40 minute walk around our pond here in our subdivision. I resisted and resisted....I haven't wanted to do something SO much for a long, long time. I knew I HAD to, thank goodness I had the support of my friend of 38 years....Brandy. If it hadn't been for her and her skinny butt, I would have sat on the couch in a coma until Jordan came home. But because of her, AND my ability to reach SUPER deep down and start this exercise crap, I am sitting here with TONS of energy and adrenaline flowing through my viens. Boy does it feel good!
We are going again tomorrow. :)
Again, TONS of water today. I did break down and had a sunkist. But only half. SO I am not beating myself up. I negotiated with my mother today, that if I lose 10 lbs every three weeks, she will pay for me to get my nails done! YAY!! THAT'S some short term incentive right there!! So I have to loose 10lbs this weekend at weight wathchers, Momma needs to get her nails done next week!! :)
I am heading out to read more of Jill's book! Tomorrow will be about what I have learned from her book and any new goals/incentives etc I have set for myself!!
Cheers!!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Bleh...
Okay!
So, not much AT ALL to report about on Tuesday. I got a TON of walking in, but mainly from the bed to the bathroom and back!
I seemed to have come down with a terrible instance of food poisoning. That'll teach me to get off track again! It was our anniversary over the weekend, and my parents got us a gift card to our favorite restaurant. (which shall remain nameless) One particular thing I ate, I JUST didn't feel great about. It wasn't hot, hardly warm even, but I ate it anyway! ugh...
I am just pretending I had the flu, but seeing how two others I know also got sick, and ate the same thing...odds are stacked against the food! Oh well.
So once I felt better, I started to work on my scrapbooking blog! I updated the Stampin Up! links and put of new pictures of the craft room. You should look! I have more tweaking to do, but at least it is current now! www.inkydiva.com
Got to go to work! Have a great day!!
So, not much AT ALL to report about on Tuesday. I got a TON of walking in, but mainly from the bed to the bathroom and back!
I seemed to have come down with a terrible instance of food poisoning. That'll teach me to get off track again! It was our anniversary over the weekend, and my parents got us a gift card to our favorite restaurant. (which shall remain nameless) One particular thing I ate, I JUST didn't feel great about. It wasn't hot, hardly warm even, but I ate it anyway! ugh...
I am just pretending I had the flu, but seeing how two others I know also got sick, and ate the same thing...odds are stacked against the food! Oh well.
So once I felt better, I started to work on my scrapbooking blog! I updated the Stampin Up! links and put of new pictures of the craft room. You should look! I have more tweaking to do, but at least it is current now! www.inkydiva.com
Got to go to work! Have a great day!!
Monday, June 1, 2009
Commenting on Comments...
Okay people!! :)
WOW! I just deleted a post that I worked almost an hour on!! Why?? Because I felt it didn't support those that are showing support for me. SO, I am going to try it again, but bare in mind:
I TOTALLY APPRECIATE YOUR SUPPORT! I totally appreciate your tried and true advice on macro nutrients and exercise, and your faith in me that I can DO this! :)
But my journey is in a TOTALLY different spot right now. I the chicken I passed up in lieu of crackers, cream cheese and jelly, was not ONE chicken breast. It was 6-8 pieces of chicken and 4+ rolls. (my mother just fainted...)
The crystal light I have been drinking has been 8 oz a day, this is in lieu of the 88ozs of sugared soda I would have drank on a "normal" day. That crystal light has been accompanied by at 100+ ozs of water each day. Normally I would get 10ozs.
I HAVE been walking 30 min. (4 days this week)
All these things I have mentioned in my blog, so I feel like are some people actually READING it? Or just commenting?
My goals this week were to go
From a fast food binge once or TWICE a day, to NO fast food.
From drinking NO water, to 100+ ozs.
From NO exercise AT ALL to 30 mins, 5 days a week.
From two+ 44oz cherry cokes, (NOT diet)a day, to NONE.
I have accomplished all these goals! :)
My weight loss would have been MUCH more drastic this weekend, had I had been medicated properly. When I swell, I carry anywhere from 20-40 lbs of water on me. This is not the water that makes us look "puffy" on a bad day. It's the stuff that constricts my lungs so I can't breath. It's the stuff that swells my feet so badly I can't get my flip flops on, the ONLY shoes I can wear. It visible signs of swelling, huge pockets of water on my feet, calves, shins, stomach, even my face when it's as bad as it got this last week.
I have counted carbs, fiber, fat, sugar, sodium protein etc. I have done Atkins, south beach weight watchers. I have Done the "Organic thing" I have Ezekiel bread in my freezer right now! I have fallen off the wagon EVERY TIME! I had never overcome my addiction to Fast Food. That is my ONLY goal right now. Weight loss isn't even the true goal in these first couple of weeks. I just was expecting it to be a nice side effect.
At this time, I cannot AFFORD to eat fast food, nor can I afford to buy a high quality stuff. That $13 that I spend on taco bell a day, is NOT there. I am taking this opportunity, while waiting for Jillian's book that she is sending me, to kick the fast food habit. WHEN I do that, I will be THAT much more successful and ready to go organic, lower carb, lower fat etc.
I want to set myself up to WIN this time.
Jillian herself told me, "I don't want you to worry about the macro nutrients right now. I don't want you to worry about eating organic right now. I don't even want you to worry about the QUALITY of food you are eating right now. I want to you ONLY count your calories and walk 30 mins 5 times a week"
I feel a victory because I have successfully taken on MORE than she asked me, and have been able to sustain it (with a set back here and there) for the week. That is not really something I have done before. I THOUGHT I had. But I was lying to myself.
Please don't take this victory away from me. I know you are not trying to. :) Your advice is right on the money. :) But it's a little too advanced for me right now. It won't be long until I will be picking your brain though for more of your secrets! ;) Give me a month or so to make these new goals a habit, only THEN can I make newer, even better goals to attain.
Thank you SO much!!
WOW! I just deleted a post that I worked almost an hour on!! Why?? Because I felt it didn't support those that are showing support for me. SO, I am going to try it again, but bare in mind:
I TOTALLY APPRECIATE YOUR SUPPORT! I totally appreciate your tried and true advice on macro nutrients and exercise, and your faith in me that I can DO this! :)
But my journey is in a TOTALLY different spot right now. I the chicken I passed up in lieu of crackers, cream cheese and jelly, was not ONE chicken breast. It was 6-8 pieces of chicken and 4+ rolls. (my mother just fainted...)
The crystal light I have been drinking has been 8 oz a day, this is in lieu of the 88ozs of sugared soda I would have drank on a "normal" day. That crystal light has been accompanied by at 100+ ozs of water each day. Normally I would get 10ozs.
I HAVE been walking 30 min. (4 days this week)
All these things I have mentioned in my blog, so I feel like are some people actually READING it? Or just commenting?
My goals this week were to go
From a fast food binge once or TWICE a day, to NO fast food.
From drinking NO water, to 100+ ozs.
From NO exercise AT ALL to 30 mins, 5 days a week.
From two+ 44oz cherry cokes, (NOT diet)a day, to NONE.
I have accomplished all these goals! :)
My weight loss would have been MUCH more drastic this weekend, had I had been medicated properly. When I swell, I carry anywhere from 20-40 lbs of water on me. This is not the water that makes us look "puffy" on a bad day. It's the stuff that constricts my lungs so I can't breath. It's the stuff that swells my feet so badly I can't get my flip flops on, the ONLY shoes I can wear. It visible signs of swelling, huge pockets of water on my feet, calves, shins, stomach, even my face when it's as bad as it got this last week.
I have counted carbs, fiber, fat, sugar, sodium protein etc. I have done Atkins, south beach weight watchers. I have Done the "Organic thing" I have Ezekiel bread in my freezer right now! I have fallen off the wagon EVERY TIME! I had never overcome my addiction to Fast Food. That is my ONLY goal right now. Weight loss isn't even the true goal in these first couple of weeks. I just was expecting it to be a nice side effect.
At this time, I cannot AFFORD to eat fast food, nor can I afford to buy a high quality stuff. That $13 that I spend on taco bell a day, is NOT there. I am taking this opportunity, while waiting for Jillian's book that she is sending me, to kick the fast food habit. WHEN I do that, I will be THAT much more successful and ready to go organic, lower carb, lower fat etc.
I want to set myself up to WIN this time.
Jillian herself told me, "I don't want you to worry about the macro nutrients right now. I don't want you to worry about eating organic right now. I don't even want you to worry about the QUALITY of food you are eating right now. I want to you ONLY count your calories and walk 30 mins 5 times a week"
I feel a victory because I have successfully taken on MORE than she asked me, and have been able to sustain it (with a set back here and there) for the week. That is not really something I have done before. I THOUGHT I had. But I was lying to myself.
Please don't take this victory away from me. I know you are not trying to. :) Your advice is right on the money. :) But it's a little too advanced for me right now. It won't be long until I will be picking your brain though for more of your secrets! ;) Give me a month or so to make these new goals a habit, only THEN can I make newer, even better goals to attain.
Thank you SO much!!
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