Over 24 sticks of butter..GONE!!

24 sticks of butter off my thighs, stomach, back fat and big toes!

24 sticks of butter???

Yep! That is my FAVORITE visual for fat loss. There are four sticks of butter in a lb, and I lost...

6.8 lbs this week!! YAY!

I didn't even TRY to lose weight. I am so excited. I just concentrated on being stronger than the Fried-chickeny cravings, stayed off the soda and drank TONS of water!! I started PURPOSEFULLY walking on Thursday for 30 mins a day with my Brandy. All of these small but HUGE things led to a pretty darn good weight loss!!

HOLY COW!! I JUST did the math! A consistent 6 lbs a week would put me at a 312 lb weight loss at the end of the year! I would weigh 250 lbs by this time next year. I haven't weighed that since High school. Now I am bawling again. WHAT THE CRAP!! THAT IS SO EASY!! Seriously?? That is all I have to do?

I GOT THIS!!!

I did fall off my little wagon a couple times this week. I had a week moment at Long John Slivers and then again at Wendy's. But the food I bought was NO WHERE NEAR the amount I would have bought normally. And I did sneak in a couple sodas here and there. (3 cans total for the week)

I did re-negotiate my goals after feeling SOOO deprived. I don't want to fail, so I need to make sure I am doing things that are a stretch for me, but still setting me up to win. So the new goal is...stick to No fast food/no sodas M-F. Then allow them in MODERATION on the weekends. So let me tell you about today...Saturday.

Hubby and I decided to go get fast food for lunch. Usually, I run out and buy it all. I come home with, (oh my, my mom is going to die here)...A value meal, superszied, with a couple/few extra dollar burgers. I sometimes eat it all, I sometimes don't. I think it is the action of ordering that gives me the comfort/high I am looking for. (right now I am REAAAAALLY craving Thai food)

ANYWAY. I bring home my crap in a bag, and my husband's meal as well. Then I just eat, and eat and eat. I don't pay ANY attention to how I feel, or how it affects my mood.

Today though, after coming off a week of slim pickin's in the fast food department, Hubby and I go to Sonic, I order my combo meal, large sized with a cherry coke. (I skip the other bazillion burgers at this point because he is with me and my dirty secret would be outed!) Then we head across the parking lot to Burger King for his lunch.

This is when I start to freak out a little internally....

"OMG! I don't have my extra trillion burgers!! What the heck am I going to do?? What if this isn't enough! All I have is a burger and onion rings!!"

"Jordan, can you get me some onion rings from BK, these (from sonic) suck. They are cold" (they were perfectly fine.

"Uh, No. You have plenty of food...you are fine!"

I panicked.

In this moment I realized how SERIOUS my addiction to food is. NOT just the act of eating the food, but even the HORDING of the food. Do you have ANY idea of how much food is in our cupboard and freezer?? I mean, I am no Kroger, HEB or Safeway, but there is enough food in home if we need it. Regardless, I CONSTANTLY tell myself I don't have any food! (granted, there isn't much on hand that Jordan would touch with a 10 foot pole. But that's a WHOLE 'nother story)

Why do I do this??? I have ALWAYS, and still do a little, FREAKED out internally when someone takes food off my plate or wants to share something. I realize this is not a healthy emotional state to be in, but I have NO idea why or how I get there!

So back to lunch. I ate my Sonic. I had PLENTY, I did not need the 800 $1 burgers to fill around the empty holes left by the Value Meal. Let me tell you, I FINALLY was able to pay attention to how I felt afterward...and I have felt like CRAP all day. Isn't that interesting! It's not as though I have put GOOD food in my body all week, but it certainly was BETTER!

This week I am going to concentrate on more of the same, because OBVIOUSLY it is working!! YAY! I am going to add though a level of consciousness. I learned this next bit from Jillian's Book Wining by Losing:

When I find myself going for food, I am going to first ask:

"Am I hungry?" Yes? Then eat something that will sustain and nourish me. No?? Then ask:

"What emotion am I feeling RIGHT now" Then ask:

"How can I take care and honor that emotion without bringing food into the equation"

Here are some rewards I have set up for myself:

Every time I win the battle over a fast food craving, I will go home and transfer the money I WOULD have spent into my secondary checking account. At the end of the month, I am going to buy some kick ass scrapbooking supplies or some clothes, or a pedicure OR all of it, the way my cravings go, I will have $500 in savings by the end of the month!

Every 3 weeks, if I have lost at least 10lbs, my Mom and Dad are going to pay for me to get my nails done. :) Something I haven't been able to afford lately, and really need as my nails are so weak and thin they split and bleed right down the middle.

Here are the BIG ones!!

When I reach 350 lbs I am going back to Disney World!
When I reach 250 lbs I am going to New Braunfels for a week!! (my favorite place in Texas)
When I reach 180 lbs I am going on a two week cruise/vacation to the Bahamas!!

(I texted these goals to my parents. Do you think they got the hint that I was asking them to foot the bill too?? ;) )

I AM SO EXCITED!! Who KNEW that 24+ sticks of butter could make you feel SOOOO good!!!

I hope this post wasn't too long! Thank you so much for reading!!

Cheers!