After getting SO VERY CLOSE to being cast on season 8, 9, and 10 of the hit reality
TV show, The Biggest Loser, I realized a lot of things about myself. The most important being, how much I desperately want and need this. "This" being a healthy, whole, functional body.

My blog is intended to help me get accountable. Accountable to EVERYONE, family, friends, complete strangers and ultimately MYSELF. I have over 400lbs to loose in order to gain the FABULOUS life I was born to lead!!

I am SO EXCITED, nervous, embarrassed and determined. I will REJOICE with you in my accomplishments and confess to you any "falling off the wagon" I might do. I encourage EVERYONE to get out there and tell your friends about this blog. The more people that read and comment, the more accountable I create for myself! This is one of the HUGE aspects I love about the show. I would NOT have let America down! Now I just have to create my OWN America!! Post your own accomplishments, encouragement, questions, doubts etc. This blog is here for you too! Let's get this ball rolling! WE GOT THIS!!

Day one starts with "Dollar Store Lettuce..." click that red link, and then scroll past this intro. :)

Monday, June 1, 2009

Commenting on Comments...

Okay people!! :)

WOW! I just deleted a post that I worked almost an hour on!! Why?? Because I felt it didn't support those that are showing support for me. SO, I am going to try it again, but bare in mind:

I TOTALLY APPRECIATE YOUR SUPPORT! I totally appreciate your tried and true advice on macro nutrients and exercise, and your faith in me that I can DO this! :)

But my journey is in a TOTALLY different spot right now. I the chicken I passed up in lieu of crackers, cream cheese and jelly, was not ONE chicken breast. It was 6-8 pieces of chicken and 4+ rolls. (my mother just fainted...)

The crystal light I have been drinking has been 8 oz a day, this is in lieu of the 88ozs of sugared soda I would have drank on a "normal" day. That crystal light has been accompanied by at 100+ ozs of water each day. Normally I would get 10ozs.

I HAVE been walking 30 min. (4 days this week)

All these things I have mentioned in my blog, so I feel like are some people actually READING it? Or just commenting?

My goals this week were to go
From a fast food binge once or TWICE a day, to NO fast food.
From drinking NO water, to 100+ ozs.
From NO exercise AT ALL to 30 mins, 5 days a week.
From two+ 44oz cherry cokes, (NOT diet)a day, to NONE.

I have accomplished all these goals! :)

My weight loss would have been MUCH more drastic this weekend, had I had been medicated properly. When I swell, I carry anywhere from 20-40 lbs of water on me. This is not the water that makes us look "puffy" on a bad day. It's the stuff that constricts my lungs so I can't breath. It's the stuff that swells my feet so badly I can't get my flip flops on, the ONLY shoes I can wear. It visible signs of swelling, huge pockets of water on my feet, calves, shins, stomach, even my face when it's as bad as it got this last week.

I have counted carbs, fiber, fat, sugar, sodium protein etc. I have done Atkins, south beach weight watchers. I have Done the "Organic thing" I have Ezekiel bread in my freezer right now! I have fallen off the wagon EVERY TIME! I had never overcome my addiction to Fast Food. That is my ONLY goal right now. Weight loss isn't even the true goal in these first couple of weeks. I just was expecting it to be a nice side effect.

At this time, I cannot AFFORD to eat fast food, nor can I afford to buy a high quality stuff. That $13 that I spend on taco bell a day, is NOT there. I am taking this opportunity, while waiting for Jillian's book that she is sending me, to kick the fast food habit. WHEN I do that, I will be THAT much more successful and ready to go organic, lower carb, lower fat etc.

I want to set myself up to WIN this time.

Jillian herself told me, "I don't want you to worry about the macro nutrients right now. I don't want you to worry about eating organic right now. I don't even want you to worry about the QUALITY of food you are eating right now. I want to you ONLY count your calories and walk 30 mins 5 times a week"

I feel a victory because I have successfully taken on MORE than she asked me, and have been able to sustain it (with a set back here and there) for the week. That is not really something I have done before. I THOUGHT I had. But I was lying to myself.

Please don't take this victory away from me. I know you are not trying to. :) Your advice is right on the money. :) But it's a little too advanced for me right now. It won't be long until I will be picking your brain though for more of your secrets! ;) Give me a month or so to make these new goals a habit, only THEN can I make newer, even better goals to attain.

Thank you SO much!!


  1. Baby steps honey take baby steps. You can't do it all in one day. Take one day at a time, one thing at a time. Remember it tooks years to eat the way we ate. It will take time and do one thing at a time... Just remember DON'T GIVE UP. YOU CAN DO THIS... Brandy

  2. No matter what you say or do, you are truely a inspration to me. I know you will have good days and bad days. I know you you are trying. Because of you I am giving up fast food. I am taking it day by day. Just like at Chilis today. My husband said,"I thought you started your diet today?" And my response was I did from Fast food and ice cream every night on the couch with you. Men just don't understand. ONE THING AT A TIME!You can't start a perfect diet and be able to stick with it. Just like Brandy said Baby steps. One bad habit at a time.

  3. Jennifer RasmussenJune 1, 2009 at 9:22 PM

    Kristin I'm so proud of you! I have the same struggle, starting a diet and falling off the bandwagon. I think that what you're doing now is the only way that somebody can truly lose weight and keep it off. Do you remember on the BL when Tara ripped open a bag of chips in the grocery store? Jillian told her it's not realistic to think she's never going to get eat another potato chip again. That's what happens though when we do too much too soon, we start to go a little crazy. So, I think focusing on the fast food and water and walking is such a good place to start. You are an inspiration to me too! I love you and I'm cheering for you!

  4. My daughter is graduating from 8th grade in a few weeks and she lives in New Jersey with her dad (I live in Houston) and the whole seeing the ex and being in good shape has been on my mind since January. I too tried weight watchers but then fell off the wagon and then cancelled my online subscription ( I refuse to be weighed in front of anyone). I joined the gym that my other daughter works at but haven't been because I don't want to do the whole assessment thing. I keep talking myself out of it. I have stopped drinking the diet sodas and drink more water and green tea ( I do use the flavor packets because I have a hard time drinking just "plain" water). I have lost 22 pounds since January just watching what I eat but I know if I would start to walk or exercise it would have been more. I really look up to you and appreciate how you are putting yourself out there... I have too many self-esteem issues to do that. On my facebook page, I had to look really hard for a picture that was taken years back and only had my face in it. How silly is that. I just went this past weekend to pick up the book by Jillian - Mastering your Metabolism... I need to start reading it. You are doing great and its the small accomplishments that go a long way.

  5. You are doing great! Don't be put off by comments -- it's just a natural instinct to reach out and help (sometimes a little misguided, but with good heart).

  6. You are doing great! Don't be put off by comments -- it's just a natural instinct to reach out and help (sometimes a little misguided, but with good heart).

  7. Recognizing your fast food addiction and tackling that first is very smart and I'm so proud of you. Drinking your water and walking is also a fabulous start. If you can beat fast food addiction then I think you will have won over half the battle. We all have our cravings and being pregnant right now it's hard to not give in to what I want rather than what I should have. You are an inspiration to us all. Good luck girl!
    Michelle :)

  8. Way to politely but firmly emphasize the PROGRESSION of what you're doing. I echo the baby-step comment. You're doing awesome just b/c you have your head and heart in the game, and I'm seriously impressed that you're drinking that much water - WOOHOO!