Ok. I am going to try to keep this positive. But it's going to take A LOT of effort! I thought I had done SOOOOO well this week.
NO FAST FOOD! (huge accomplishment)
at least 125ozs of water a day
NO SODAS!! (did break down. I drank 1/3 of a diet 7up, funny enough, didn't miss it!)
Walked 4 days this week for 30 mins.
On Thursday, I finally got to CVS and got my BP meds and diuretic. I was pretty miserable all week until then, and Thursday was downright scary I could hardly breath. I left work early to go home and prop my feet up for hours while I tried to get the swelling down.
I went to Weight Watchers today to weigh-in, still a little swollen but I though AT LEAST a 5 lb loss, and secretly thought it would be more.
1.friggin2 lbs lost
I was pissed
Still am
Do you KNOW the agony I went through fighting gargantuan fast food-binge cravings? I am sure many of you do. It helped that I have NO money right now. Certainly not enough to waste on Taco Bell. I seriously walked out of Weight Watchers, outwardly positive but saying to myself as I waddled back to my car:
"1.2 stupid lbs!! That's a bowel movement!! Good thing I pooped this morning or I would have GAINED!! All that work!! It's not flippin' worth it!!"
That is precisely when I started to bawl.
NOT because I had worked so hard and lost so little, but because in that moment, I almost gave up. My spirit was SCREAMING at me! SHUT UP!! It is SOOO worth it!! 1 lb a week is 52 lbs a year!! That is 10% of your weight! You KNOW that it's not always going to be such a small number, stop being so hard on yourself and KEEP GOING! (and here I am bawling again)
WE ARE WORTH IT YOU GUYS!! You HAVE to know that!! There is a HUGE life out there waiting for us to live! We DO NOT need the ranch, and I am still determined to prove that!
This week I have learned that I AM A POWERFUL WOMAN!! Strong enough to overcome my crack dealer waiving his Fried Chicken in my face WHILE jonesin' for that fried chickeny goodness. THAT IS A GIGANTIC VICTORY!! All I have to do is keep piling up these victories, from the HUGE ones, to the tiny 1.2 lb ones. One day, all those victories, added up, will give me the life I was born to live. YOU have this power too.
This next week I am going to start to count points and calories. I am interested to see how many calories I end up with if I stay within my allotted points on the Weight Watcher program. Stay tuned!!
Blessings to you all, and thank you SO much for supporting me.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
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Kristin, I am very proud of you. You stuck with everything this week, and any loss is good. I know I get frustrated when I think it should have been more too, but a loss is a loss. Also, since you just got back on your meds a couple of days ago, I bet your body is still trying to get rid of some of that extra fluid. My dad has to deal with that sometimes too. By next weigh-in you will have had a few more days on your meds and that will help on the scale. Hang in there dear! :o)
ReplyDelete1.2 pounds is wonderful! Isn't 1.2 pounds a week actually 62.4 pounds a year? (-:
ReplyDeleteBy the way, don't know if you want anywhere else to log in, but http://www.presidentschallenge.org lets you log in your exercise everyday and when you reach their 20,000 point goal you get a presidential physical fitness certificate. Kind of cool even though certificates normally don't motivate me, but this time it is for some reason.
Keep up the good work. I'm curious if the weekends are harder or easier for you?
Girl, remember even on The Biggest Loser they have good and bad weeks. Stick with it!! You crack me up with the poop thing. I was rolling on the floor. No, not really but it was that funny that I could of been. It most likely was water. I am with you on the no fast food. I was so craving a McDonlds hamburger with EXTRA PICKLES but I thought of you. I can't tell you to do it if I can't. NO FAST FOOD!!!
ReplyDeleteBy the way, my phone is dead! It is being charged. I will come over this week to see your srcapbooking room. We went to On The Border on 290! Way the heck out of there. Ellie isn't feeling good probably from getting NO sleep. Anyways, they are jumping into the shower and then into bed. See Ya Tomorrow!!!
ReplyDeleteYour Friggin 2 lb weight lost is better then my Friggin 3 lb. weight gain.
ReplyDeleteHey Girl~ It's a LOSS!!! Please don't get discouraged and read Jillian's book. I am half way through her book and can't put it down :)))) All good things.
ReplyDeleteKristin -- I'm over here from Jillian's site (MyBetterSelf). Keep going! You're going to keep losing weight and you will feel great as well.
ReplyDeleteSometimes the scale just doesn't move too much for a week, but you'll make it up next week.
Congrats on kicking the fast food this week! Forgetting all of the calories, but all of the trans fats, sugars, and frankeningredients are just not good for you.
I've been following Jillian's advice (more generally, I don't do the specific meal plans) for about 6 weeks and I am feeling great. Lost about 20 pounds so far with about 65 to go. I have been tracking my progress at http://whenilookinthemirror.wordpress.com
Again- Keep going! You are doing awesome!
Kristin,
ReplyDeleteIt is so late for me, but I just had to check out your newest developments. I started to get tears when I read the part that there is this life waiting for out there!!!!!!!!! I just keep thinking back to being roomies and just how strong you are(trying not to make this about me, but you are just the best roommate in the world!!!!) I am so proud of you for doing this. You are so incredible and the no fast food thing is so huge for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HUGE!!!!!!!!!!!! Good for you. There is a life out there waiting for you Kristin. It has been waiting for you for so long and I saw this incredible power within you way back in Gunnison, then saw it again in in Julie's basement(as I snuck out the back doors instead of going out the front door)and know it is still in you to move mountains. You are going to do this!!! I love you Kristin and will be cheering for you all the way. You also know that someone else is cheering for you, right?????? He has always been there and is smiling down on you you know! Good for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kristin! I am so proud of you 1.2 pouds lost is still a loss not a gain! Also I know how much water weight my body carries and how if fluctuates daily... So Please do not feel discouraged! We are all here with you and cheering you on! I know that we have not talked in years but you have always been beautiful to me and it was not weight I saw it was your inner beauty that shines through in your personality. I am so proud of you! I have lost 5 pounds in the last 2 and 1/2 weeks and while that seems so small for me it is another step toward that goal of getting healthy. I too am vowing no fast food which is hard when the kids are begging for it! They wanted Mcdonalds last night and I decided since we had to eat out we went to Panera Bread and I had soup and a salad! Which is a huge thing for me as well I compleately understand the fast food cravings!
ReplyDeleteGirl, please. You are smart enough to know that the body fluctuates so much from one day to the next, especially one like yours, that you needn't let small numbers get you down. Once you've been doing this a bit longer and your body starts getting used to your knew healthy habits, I think you're going to start seeing numbers that please you more.
ReplyDeleteJust keep doing what you're doing, and it will get easier every day. Remember the most important thing right now is making smart decisions and creating healthy habits. All the rest will follow.
Be patient. Remember- instant gratification is what has gotten us in this predicament. You're doing great! Just keep it up! I'm so proud of you.
1.2 lbs lost, congratulations. I understand you are taking baby steps to get to meet your goals. We all should follow your example. I have a suggestion thou. You posted a sample of what you ate for the day on May 27. Is that typical? It was awfully high in carbs, sugar and fat, and fairly low in vegetables and protein. I saw no fruit in your diet. Get rid of the sugar - jelly, pudding, and get rid of the processed carbs and meats - ritz crackers, white bread and BMT cold cuts. Add fruit, vegies, protein and complex carbs (whole grain breads, pasta and rice) and I guarantee your weight loss will speed up.
ReplyDeleteSo let us be honest, I hope you dont mind too much...
ReplyDeleteFirst, you lost weight. Quite simply, if you lost weight, you won that fight. You had a goal, you didnt hit what you wanted but you did win the fight and you gotta remember that the ultimate goal here is to lose. You are on your way.
Second, you weigh 560+ or whatever it is, 1.2 lbs is a bowel movement! I would be pissed off, hurt, upset, whatever... you can do better, you and I both know it. I know it, because I weigh 401 lbs as of this morning. We have so much to lose, a solid effort WILL yield the results to make you happy. So being honest, push yourself more.
My suggestions for week 2. Cut out crystal light and diet drinks for one week. You can do that, drink water instead. Dont give in to it, do it for just a week. Next, for just 2 of those 5 days, go to a park or place you think if you had to do it, you wouldnt mind walking at... and walk for a straight 30 mins. Now I am a big boy so I can tell you from having done this, that it is hard. Very hard. But I have done 45 mins or so of this, so I think you can manage 30. It isnt the same to just move around more, you gotta challenge yourself, and trust me 30 mins of straight walking will be a good one.
Last, you are amazing for doing this blog. I could not do it, amazing strength and determination to do this. It will be tough, I hope you keep moving forward and I promise to be around to cheer you on!
1.2 lbs is actually a HEALTHY amount to lose per week. I hired a personal trainer about 4 years ago because NOTHING was working. I kept a food diary and he measured my fat and weighed me. Loved that day at the gym. I was killing myself and couldn't understand why, after a month, I'd lost 6 lbs and gained 2. I was mortified.
ReplyDeleteMy trainer explained to me that my body has been living a certain way for so long that due to my healthy changed, my body was actually going into shock. It needed time to adjust. I couldn't expect myself to lose 5 lbs a week because 1) That's not healthy; and 2) My body was freaking out and storing as much fat as possible.
Remember that muscle weighs more than fat (but it takes up less room).
I didn't lose weight the healthy way. I abused my body for years so I'm proud that you're doing this the RIGHT way. I'll check in from time to time on you. Just know that I know you can do this!